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I have a long history of hating myself. My struggle with depression and anxiety began my freshman year of high school, eight long years ago in 2012. That eventually developed into anorexia. Even after beginning eating disorder recovery in late 2014, I was still far from loving myself. There were more days where I hated [...]
Going vegan or vegetarian has become a trend in the eating disorder recovery world. When you're someone who is already so focused on what you're eating in an unhealthy way, it's easy to look at a lifestyle that seems healthier and want to be a part of it. Unfortunately, the process or idea of keeping [...]
Things have been hard lately. School is really stressing me out (upper division classes really pile on the workload) and when I'm not doing homework, I'm working. My eating disorder has also been trying to slip in whenever possible (aka, every time I look at or think about either food or my body), and I've [...]
I feel out of control of everything in my life. Things are changing so rapidly and I don't know how to cope. I don't know what to do or where to turn to handle everything that's going on. I need something that changes on my terms, something in my life I can manipulate and shape, something I [...]
One of the biggest things I've struggled with in my life is caring what others think. If you know me personally, this might seem a little strange, but I usually do care what people think- in the smallest ways that make huge ripples in my life. I want people to like me. I want people [...]
In 2014, I was so sick mentally that I thought I'd never make it through the year. I didn't want to make it through the year. Physically, I was falling apart and getting worse with each skipped meal, my heart just weeks from failing me. Emotionally, I was already dead. I felt nothing and I [...]
After almost three years in recovery from my eating disorder, I have learned a lot about myself and my illness. I know what tends to trigger relapses, how to keep myself from falling into one, what feelings push me too far and what comments make me overthink. After three years, I’ve relapsed more times than [...]
I'm now a month into my Disney College Program in Orlando, and things could not be more magical. I get to work right behind Cinderella Castle and go to the parks whenever I want. Both on and off the clock I experience magical moments, for other guests and myself as well. Every time I go [...]
There are no words I could use or descriptions I could think of that could ever accurately explain what it's like to have an eating disorder, or more specifically, anorexia. No one could ever completely understand the pain, loss of control, and lack of emotion that are like extra bullets during the hardest parts of my [...]
